Some time ago

a dream came to me

softly at first than rushing in as a scream on adrenaline

my fight or flight hormones raging

sometimes life is soft as a dream

easy to love and full of happiness

when everyone comes together for the greater good

other time my reality is shattered on the whim of terrorizing

energy vampires that suck the life out of my being

scraping whats left of my sanity from my skull

with their razor sharp words

amended moments of time

I find my way off grid and sink into sin

shallow and wasted yet not gone

a vessel of human life

a trace of what I use to dream

a glimpse of all that could have been

then they find me

in all my glory as I started picking up the pieces

they grab them from me

throwing them to the wind

I hope they will reseed as they grow

as they grew in my womb

into the chaos i call home

These mad moments in time

where anything sets  her off

I simplify

and clean

and hope for the best

that they continue to grow