longer/32/soul love saga

Funny… the longer I am truly alone, the longer I have to contemplate. The longer I have to collect my thoughts the more rational, no irrational they seem. How can anyone feel so in tuned with both male and female? The brush's that begin with just a smile just happens. The young man in my science class with the dreadies just has the warmest smile every time he passes by me. Or the guy that has the Spanish look to him that asked for directions the other day after he busted me giving him the double take look. I am just as into other girls as I am into the guys. Allen who is sweet and coming into his father hood so sweetly is just amazing to me it is such a turn on to see a guy so in tune with his kids.


......But then there is that Christy who is with married women that stops me and tells me how wonderful her love life is and I find myself so jealous that those smiling blue eyes are not mine to adore. I love the times that I get to stop and talk to her. I love running into her and passing her, because she always has that smile for me. I find myself gazing out the window when I am at Will’s and I see her and her girlfriend making out. She deserves better than a safe relationship with a woman who cannot fully commit.